https://cincoflex.dreamwidth.org/ The Cyberbarony of St. Sebastian - Dreamwidth Studios Sat, 03 Jun 2017 22:04:18 GMT LiveJournal / Dreamwidth Studios cincoflex personal https://v2.dreamwidth.org/11233147/354079 https://cincoflex.dreamwidth.org/ 100 100 https://cincoflex.dreamwidth.org/3508.html Sat, 03 Jun 2017 22:04:18 GMT https://cincoflex.dreamwidth.org/3508.html Took a nap, got up, and promptly passed several huge blood clots into my underwear. like half the size of golf-balls.<br /><br />I know you guys must be tired of hearing about all my uterine woes, but I'm documenting it so I know when and where stuff happened, and honestly, I need the comfort of women who empathize and understand this shit.<br /><br />And it IS shit. Physically and emotionally I am so, so tired of this ongoing nightmare. Having to hobble to the store to buy huge bulky pads while trying not to bleed through the small pads I have is a nightmare. Knowing I can't call my doctor until Monday is a nightmare. Trying to figure out if this is the start of a period or if the clots are an isolated incident is a nightmare.<br /><br />Knowing I still have over a month before surgery, and I need to go through more tests is a fucking nightmare as well.<br /><br />I'm on the verge of crying right now. The stress of work, home life and now this physical issue is putting me over the top and I just feel so alone right now. I don't mean to drag anyone else down with me, but it's been a long time since I felt this low.<br /><br /><img src="https://www.dreamwidth.org/tools/commentcount?user=cincoflex&ditemid=3508" width="30" height="12" alt="comment count unavailable" style="vertical-align: middle;"/> comments https://cincoflex.dreamwidth.org/3508.html surgery clots sad public 2